I've had the worst panic attack of my life so far (I know I always say this but panic attacks are hell). Anyways, I'm barred.

I'm going to quickly write a letter to my doctor about everything and all the meds/stuff I'm taking and explain to my family etc before I get another panic attack and become paralyzed again.

I'll be alone on the weekend. One of my moms friends are going to check on me. I'm doing everything in my power to not be admitted to the psych ward again.

I feel like I lose 500 IQ points when I dissociate.