It’s 6am. I’m home — I had stomach issues and spent a good amount of time in the bathroom at work. I’m just expecting to hear I’m fired. I don’t care— I’m literally over the part where I give a damn about it:

So the depression, the missed therapy and not rescheduling, the med situation (let’s just not go there..), it’s all just not looking too good and are looking like “signs” of something. I’m too frustrated to even fight. Work is just the major cog in the machine that’s making the grinding noises right now. But they’re all rusted and busted up, let’s focus on any aspect of my life and we will see the same issues. lol.

Im going to go to sleep. I hope to have a job tomorrow but if I don’t? Well then I don’t.

What’s my next move? No clue.

Bright side? Still looking for it.

Stress, anxiety, depression, bipolar, mental illness — it can all just go to hell. I’ll never be able to live a life how I wish, I’m sick of that illusion. I’m just f’n sick and tired. And clearly I can’t get this “pissed off” vibe out of my system either lol. Anyway...

Have A good night all .