I don't really know where else to put this.

I've been through and continue to go through a lot of cyber bullying on a hobby website I belong to. It got so bad that I had a break down and left for a while. I've returned, but the bullies are still there and I'm still dealing with the effects of it. I don't want to leave again because I really love my real friends on there and the hobby, but I don't want to be chased away again. What happened really destroyed my mental health for a while.

I deleted a person that caused me a lot of anxiety by their hateful posts, who I was friends with. And they black listed me as a bully for deleting them and shared it around. Another person who disliked me, that I had a falling out with asked all my victims to come forward. I swear I've never abused or bullied anyone on this site. Ever. I lost a lot of friends.

There have been people I had a falling out with last year that still hold a grudge and have told people not to be my friend and talk to me. I get outcasted a lot. People I've never even spoken to won't have anything to do with me because they are their friends.

It's hard sometimes and I try not to feel discouraged. I'm wondering if anyone has advice on how to deal with this or how I can keep it from affecting my mental health again. I removed all the mutual friends from the recent bully who claimed I was a bully, because I found out from other friends they were trashing me behind the scenes but nice to my face. I feel safer on there but like I don't really belong and like an outcast.