I sent the letter that I want to say to my doctor including the "benzo log" from the past year to my mom and she printed it out at work.

There's no one that's going to be home on the weekend and that's when I have to work. I'll be alone. My mom said that she will call me to help get myself out of bed.

I feel very calm right now because of the Vyvanse and atenolol. When the Vyvanse wears off, it will be almost time to sleep so I'll just prepare myself for bed and hopefully not panic my brains out and eyes rolling to the back of my head and I die..

I'm gonna focus on technology right now like the new phones and tablets.. I want to get a good tablet like the new iPad Pro.