as a lot of you know, i used to be in an abusive relationship. well last night i realized, for the first time in 2.5 years, that im at peace with him. i was talking about it last night and realized that i didn't call him "dickhead" I called him "chris" and I didn't feel my blood boil when I was talking about it. I actually dont hate him anymore.

a couple of years ago i never thought i would be in this place and im really glad I am. I actually feel bad for him to have to go through the childhood he had and that he couldn't deal with it.

and the crazy thing is that we were only together for 6 months. I can't even imagine how women who have been in abusive relationships for years and years must feel. I am really thankful that I had enough strength to finally leave.

and Im really thankful for my ex-boyfriend who gave me a place to stay until I got back on my feet. and im really thankful for my friends who finally beat it into my head that i deserved better than to be hit all the time.

i just wanted to share my revelation with everyone to let people who are struggling with the hatred that comes along with being in that situation, that it does in fact get better.