Oh Kemi0822. I feel for you. I really do. I'm 63 and wanted what my parents and grandparents had. A marriage till death do I part. But I didn't get it. One live in boyfriend for 10 yrs. and no marriage in sight. Married twice. It's hard and I learned from my past. Please don't call or text anymore. Let the husband call you. Life sucks right now... I was exactly like you but please go on with your life. It's a new journey. HUGS