More and more I've started to hate everything in my life that I used to love. It all just feels like one big trap that I need to escape from. This has been going on for quite a while. I want to just throw everything away and start over and find a better life. I want to quit my job, sell my house, divorce my wife, everything. The urge is extremely strong, like I have to change everything now while I still can or else be trapped forever.

I've read that some people "externalize" their depression and act out in ways like that. Do you think that's what's going on? Does anyone else have experience with that? Even though I know that maybe there's an explanation for it, the urge to escape is still so strong. Everything just feels so completely wrong...