I've heard of codependency but don't know much about it. I'm really depressed about my life because I want things for myself, but I can't make these plans because my family will walk all over and spit on it. Then, I'll get chewed out. Just like I always have since I was young. I'm 30 now and it's hard to stand my ground.

I look at my friends who just do whatever the heck they want, or have healthy relationships. It makes me depressed feeling like that is unattainable. I've contemplated cutting them off, which my bf doesn't want to do. I've contemplated just leaving to a new city. But I need to work on my family situation so I don't feel like this mule for them anymore!