Life feels worrisome,Covid rules are stressing me out,not understanding my life's purpose,lack of finances is another source of stress.Always just surviving,existing,never enough money to really enjoy the world,to really live.I wonder if I wrote that book,would I make enough to enjoy,travel,achieve more,most likely not.Fear of failure is what stops me trying........I lack faith in my abilities.Its sad that I stopped loving and believing in myself,if I ever did that is!