I am also trying to learn if I have anything similar to schizophrenia. I am sure that I went through a few episodes of psychosis, I seem to be better now most the time, but its still there. You will have to deal with stubborn doctors and psychiatrists all the time, that is what I learned, but in the end you must do what you feel is right for you.

I have thought disorder once in a while, but I am glad that I can sit here and type this and think a lot more clearly. There are a lot of times when I have racing thoughts and think of bad things and cant keep my mind on something for more than a second and then I become really delusional. These episodes can last for hours, or even days and weeks. People have also told me I hardly ever make eye contact and show no emotions, and I always talk in the same low tone. I dont think I have schizophrenia anymore, I think its just episodes of psychosis because of my environment and untreated depression and anxiety. The worst thing about it is when you cant go outside without getting really paranoid and you cant think straight and your not yourself, that with the fear is pretty bad.