(((((((((((((((((((( angela )))))))))))))))))))))))
that tape is going to hold you together until you have the strength to once again hold yourself together...and you will.
sometimes the reality that someone we love so much could be so easily taken allows for great fear to settle in. it's a scary, vulnerable and helpless feeling

i'm sorry you're there right now.
i'll never forget when my daughter's friend passed away in an accident. I, as a mother, about lost it thinking "that could've happened to her". i almost couldn't fuction for a while...from fear. when i think of it, i still have that fear.
however, you're not only dealing with the fear like that. every time something happens, i think it's opening that door to grief of losing someone you loved so much. you're dealing with both at the same time

can you give t a call?
i hope time heals you quickly friend. until then, we're here for you.
love,