i'm not sure if this is the right place to put this...but i'm assuming this is one of my irritating little bipolar symptoms...so i'll plump for here and sincere apologies to any poor mod who has to move it.

impulse control. it's driving me

i'll try to explain. my mood swings are legendary...and quick...and drive even me round the bend. like tonite...i had the sudden urge to delete my membership here, delete my myspace page, delete all my online accounts, block folks from my e-mail, unhook my fone and say...bleep the world.

so i lectured myself...over and over...you don't wanna do this, you'll hurt all your friends, you'll have to spend hours rebuilding pages etc, you'll hate yourself in the morning for being a ***** etc etc etc.

now i'm not sure when i started making myself fight stupid and sudden impulses and urges...coz i got amnesia grrrrrr...but...dang it's hard.

and i know this might seem like worrying about nothing to you all...but sometimes my impulses are dangerous to my own life and NOT so easy to fight!

and what's the point of this post?...oh geez i don't even know. advice, share stories, i don't really know but whatever i guess.

peace, love, hugs to you all.