I am struggling with tiredness today,I got up at 3.30am and dyed my hair at 5am,went back to bed,just got up again at 12.15pm and I can't open my eyes.I also had some weird
dreams about my abuser,and my family,for some reason I needed an emerson heater installed in the woods and two companies for competeing for me to pay them to instal it,then my uni was stahing a protest and my family chip shop was used for the catering and there was a big tray of chips and fish and I almost fell into the food but got myself away and was criticised for abandoning the cause,then I made my way into the woods and my abuser who I had a massive crush on was sitting wating for me and I was considered a no show and a let down for the cause.I couldn't employ the emerson installers that my friend Sue from my schooldays recomended cos I already asked the other company to do the groundwork.What a crazy dream,even though my abuser was waiting for me I wouldn't approach him cos he didn't feel safe but I was pining for him still.