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Old Aug 14, 2020, 01:03 PM
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Originally Posted by FluffyDinosaur View Post
More and more I've started to hate everything in my life that I used to love. It all just feels like one big trap that I need to escape from. This has been going on for quite a while. I want to just throw everything away and start over and find a better life. I want to quit my job, sell my house, divorce my wife, everything. The urge is extremely strong, like I have to change everything now while I still can or else be trapped forever.

I've read that some people "externalize" their depression and act out in ways like that. Do you think that's what's going on? Does anyone else have experience with that? Even though I know that maybe there's an explanation for it, the urge to escape is still so strong. Everything just feels so completely wrong...
This makes a lot of sense. I find that when I am ill mentally I project my inside world onto the outside. It feels so completely real, but it is my subconscious mind speaking to me.

What if we looked at whats going on with you as if it were a dream? So everything feels wrong. Could this be your subconscious letting you know there's something wrong physically, or mentally or emotionally? Try to look at your feelings figuratively and less literal.

When we feel this trapped by this many things it isn't typically life on the outside that traps us. Don't throw away your life and the people who are important because your mind shifted. Just start telling yourself there is an imbalance in your body/mind/emotions and you need time to adjust and let it pass.

If after a good long while, at least several months, and after adjusting things with your doctor, you still feel trapped maybe then you make a change. Until then work with this as though you're projecting like we do when we dream. Carry some insight and knowing that the story your mind is selling is just that. A story. There is plenty of time to change your life one day if that is truly needed. Blowing up your whole world while you're ill is not a good call.

And on the symbolism front. When we feel trapped in a dream it can often represent feelings of powerlessness. I know when I get sick I often feel that way like I am a puppet and I cannot control my own mind. Just tossing that out as an example of how you can work with these feelings without assuming they actually mean you need to flee your life.
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