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Originally Posted by FluffyDinosaur
Thank you, this is an interesting perspective, especially the point about powerlessness (as it's easy to feel powerless against bipolar). The problem is this episode and these thoughts have already lasted so long (since before the start of this year) that I really don't know what's real anymore. All I know is that "rationally" I have no reason to feel this way. I've already talked to my wife about buying an extra house where I could live but I'll try to hold off on actually changing anything until this episode relents, if it ever will.
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It will pass. All things have seasons. Don't lose hope.
Check to see if there are respite centers in your area. There's one near me. It is kinda like IP except there are no doctors and no requirements on your time. They have group sessions and activities and counselors, but you decide what you want to do. It gives you a safe place to go for a while to get a break from your world. My husband and I have my going there as a strategy in the event I'm not well, but I don't need IP.
If not a respite center what about a hotel for a few days or a quiet cabin or short getaway someplace else? Maybe a small break would give you what your mind keeps asking for without it being so long term or final.
Also, maybe find a way to schedule a break for yourself every day from everyone. My kids no longer take naps, but they do a 2 hour quiet time in their rooms where they play and relax. It gives me a chance to be free and be me for a while before I have to be a mom and a wife again. I also give myself a break from worrying about my mental status during that time.
Sometimes taking what we need in small ways adds up to a big difference.
If only we were kids and we could run to the treehouses in the back yard
And yeah, it is so easy to feel powerless, but its funny because that feeling makes me rally and want to kick serious backside all that much more
