I am TERRIFIED of reading what might be in my file, but I am also so curious. A comment about my weight or general appearance or intelligence level that I didn't like would tear me apart. What if my T thinks I am a poorly groomed obese female of low to average intelligence?

I really would like to see the records. I think it might help me gain insight. Maybe I should ask T if there is anything that might hurt my feelings in his notes and make my decision based on that.

Back to the original comment though, my T makes notes while I am talking. Sometimes he gives me a general idea of what he is writing. I don't know if he makes more notes after I leave or not.