I am such a failure....I'm going to let down everyone who's important to me, in so many ways. I just wanted to be happy, and I see myself slipping down that cliche road to failure. I never thought I'd be "that" person, and here I am a living testament....

I have two choices here...suck it up and pretend my worlds okay. Live in my delusion.
or
Admit I need help, find a shrink, tell my family and friends what's going on, let my world collapse, build a new and better one...

Yeah, yeah I know which one I'm suppose to do, but that doesn't mean it's going to be any easier. I'm so afraid I'm going to get hurt, or have everyone hate me. Believe me, they have plenty of reasons to hate me, they just don't know it yet.