Hi DazedandConfused254. Welcome to Psych Central. It sounds like your grandmother meant a lot to you and it must have been so difficult to watch her go downhill.

I have experienced that anger and denial are some of the stages I was in when my dad passed at 89. He lived a full life but the last few years he suffered as the body and eventually the mind gave away. I was sad at his passing but realized there was nothing I or anyone else could do to change the trajectory of his life.

It took me a few years to process the grief. It was not easy. I had had friends die before but it was different with him. It really disrupted my life. I had to reinvent myself now that he was no longer in my world.

These articles may be of interest Coping with Grief | Psych Central
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