Okay, so I've now began the process of narrowing things down and study. I am now %90 sure that I am on the spectrum, and that it is what was called Aspergers, and now I believe is called High-functioning autism. The whole COVID thing has made it hard for me to contact my doctor at the VA to get assessed, so I have to do what I can. My God, this has given me closure on many things, and it explains so much of why my childhood was a living Hell.