Thank you both!

I am trying to go easy on myself. I saw a quote by Mark Twain that gave me some perspective... "Good decisions come from experience. Experience comes from making bad decisions." I think I've definitely learned and grew from what happened and am so much more careful with how I talk to people now. I know, inevitably, we do hurt others. Sometimes not even with malicious intent, we have to put ourselves first and make hard choices that hurt people. I feel bad about those decisions too. but also feel they are necessary.

I've been very humbled lately by all the things I've been going through, and realizing I have toxic traits like everyone else. But also positive and good traits. I think that's everybody.