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Originally Posted by fern46
It will pass. All things have seasons. Don't lose hope.
Check to see if there are respite centers in your area. There's one near me. It is kinda like IP except there are no doctors and no requirements on your time. They have group sessions and activities and counselors, but you decide what you want to do. It gives you a safe place to go for a while to get a break from your world. My husband and I have my going there as a strategy in the event I'm not well, but I don't need IP.
If not a respite center what about a hotel for a few days or a quiet cabin or short getaway someplace else? Maybe a small break would give you what your mind keeps asking for without it being so long term or final.
Also, maybe find a way to schedule a break for yourself every day from everyone. My kids no longer take naps, but they do a 2 hour quiet time in their rooms where they play and relax. It gives me a chance to be free and be me for a while before I have to be a mom and a wife again. I also give myself a break from worrying about my mental status during that time.
Sometimes taking what we need in small ways adds up to a big difference.
If only we were kids and we could run to the treehouses in the back yard 
And yeah, it is so easy to feel powerless, but its funny because that feeling makes me rally and want to kick serious backside all that much more  |
Thanks, I did look into respite centers but unfortunately there don't seem to be any in my area. Some time away to rest does sound good, and I could probably arrange that somehow, but then again I don't want to ask for too much time off at work and I'm kind of afraid that things will get worse without the distraction of work (however badly I can concentrate right now).
What I would really like right now is more intensive treatment and therapy for a while, like when I was in IOP. Just a couple more therapy sessions a week would already be a big help for me. Unfortunately I don't really see a way to get that. My therapist can't do more than once a week (because of the rules of the practice where she works) and I'm already getting that. I've thought of going IOP again, but although things have been pretty bad, I don't think I'm in a full-fledged "crisis" yet so I don't think I can go there. It's just that this has been going on way too long and I'm tired and I can't take any more. I wish the intensive treatment could have gone on for a while after the crisis-proper was over because I sure feel like I'm nowhere near recovery yet and it's way too easy to relapse this way.