Oh Angela, I know this is easier said then done but you really need to force yourself to resume normal life as much as possible. I think we have all been where you are. F**** I want to be cared for and why is life wso hard and if I become non-functional enough will others come and rescue me. The answer is no, not in the way you want to be treated. You have to dig deep and find the love we have for you here and move on with blind faith. Trust me, you do not want to let others start making decisions for you. You are held, you are loved. You need to be part of your life as it is way short.