There was a trauma in my life, I felt it, but I'm starting to believe that its "impact" on me was overblown by narcissistic point of view.

I did not mean to manipulate you by sharing that story back in a day. I was not aware of most of bad behaviors. But yes, I lied. It was not so bad. I honestly believe things that happened to me in early years of my life could cause some discomfort and little shame (fat guy getting laughed at). They caused me much more than that, because people putting you down equals people questioning your worth and refusing to give you admiration, so I considered it as a trauma, because I am a covert narcissist.

The unfortunate fact is that I could apologize you for that manipulation right now, but I am not sure if I would mean it