I could try to set up an evaluation with a psychiatrist, the only problem is my family and I are currently living in Europe on military orders so it's a little more complicated. We also don't like speaking about my mental illness. It's a very sensitive topic but I do believe I really need that. I'll talk with my doctor on referrals and a physicist they might recommend at a future appointment. Let's hope I can find good one.
Thank you for all the advise and letting me know I have support