Ok, so i havent seen a thread with this yet, and im to tired to continue looking.
I have an extremely strong fear of insects, bugs an spiders.
So srtong that im unable to be with my friends and family, since my family loves to be outside in the sun, go on walks, biking and hiking/camping, and im here in my room, doors and windows closed untill the air gets so bad that I get migrene-like headaches, and quoting my mom "you could cut the air vith a knife(like butter)!".

If you're scared of insects/spiders or have experience with the fear, id like to hear your thoughts/experience!

I can get really strong panic attacks and the thought of exposure therapy gives me anxiety. Ive heard of hypnotherapy(i think thats it??) But it seems really expensive! I dont know what to do! I keep hating myself for this stupid fear i have, i mean im not scared of SNAKES or creatures/things like that, BU INSECTS! YEAH THAT MAKES SENSE! MAKE IT FEEL LIKE YOU'RE HAVING A HART ATACK OR SUM SHAIT, CUS OF A STUPID LITTLE SPIDER OR FLY!!
stupid brain...

Sorry, im just really frustrated and angry with myself, even though I have very little control of my own fear...

What should i do?