I’m feeling this like raw kind of emotion today. This feeling I can feel way deep in my gut. I haven’t felt this way I don’t think in years if ever. I don’t know how to explain it. But I feel like I got hit by a truck kind of. Emotionally not physically. But it doesn’t feel like anxiety. I don’t need to take a Xanax. I just feel like my heart is in my throat. I just miss my therapist a lot and I listened to the song Million Dollar Loan by Death Cab For Cutie last night and I’m just very emotional about both of them and the move next year. I’m not a typical emotional person. Like I get moody and anxious but I don’t get gut wrenching emotions that I can really feel the way I do right now. It’s just really really weird.