I know you've already emailed your T and got an answer. I do often email my T when she's on vacation. For over a year now, we have daily contact so when she takes time off or time away she lets me know if she won't have email access or is unsure about her email access. This is not to tell me to not write, but to set my expectations around her reply.

I think it was ok to email your T and let them know what is going on for you. It sounds like your T is ok with you emailing her again before she gets back; however, you should not expect an answer because she is out of contact. It might feel good to give her updates even if it is saying that 'stuff is tough and you are doing the best you can at hanging in there' just in case she takes the moment to see her emails. It might help resolve some of those feelings of -- hmm as I read your post, I get the sense that it is feelings of guilt because of somehow you are ruining her vacation. I'm not so sure that is an accurate statement of what might be happening to her. Sure it's a maybe, it's a possibility; what is the probability? I know.. a logical answer to a feeling. My hope is that with your T, and with any T, they will be able to enjoy their vacation while they have moments where they think about you and send thoughts/hopes of calmness and so on.