I've spent most of the last 25 birthdays alone. I'm so resigned to it i even went alone to restaurants for their free birthday meals twice! At Denny's the waitress felt so sorry for me she wished me Happy Birthday several times. But it was too upsetting so i stopped that. I really felt like a capital "L" loser! Whatever... One year i spent my birthday doing an intake for a day hospital. When the staff asked my birthday and realized it was that very day they said Happy Birthday and that was it for that year.

My birthday is soon and i also feel upset when people wish me Happy Birthday because it means they know it's my special day and they just neglect to do anything special for me. Tho it's dwindled down to a card from a support group and wishes on Facebook so now it's not so bad. It's a very humbling day tho. But because of my bipolar i can't do year-round activities like friendships so them's the breaks.

With COVID this year tho i'm hoping it won't be so bad? No one is exactly having birthday bashes this year...