Sorry to hear that you are feeling this way! We are almost in the same boat. I have done a lot too to help me to live well with emotional problems, but for the time being it all feels so hopeless.

To be honest, I think that is how it is, days do not go from A to B in a straight line. There are good times and bad times. I think that not one person is similar to another. We have to make our own private journey. It sounds so easy, but it isn't. One has to accept that one has a MI and live like with that in mind. There can come many good times. Hope you feel better soon!

The WRAP app (Wellness Recovery Action Plan) is made to help us live as best we can in good times and in lesser good times. Take a look at it and see if it can give you some hope about good tools to use.