Have Hope, thank you.

Just started to write down everything I can remember about yesterday. The one thing that keeps stopping me in my tracks is mother's attitude in telling me it was all my fault. Think it's because I've finally accepted she's devious and has been for a long while.

Something she wouldn't tell me, that reduced her to tears, was a comment her neighbour made sometime last year. Found out from him a week ago exactly what he said. It was his view of my brother's lack of visits and broken promises to do jobs for her. They say that truth hurts. Being a father himself, he knows about family dynamics. Of course, he's now on the naughty list because he dared to criticise her perfect son.

All the things she said yesterday that she isn't, she actually is. Dramatic, jealous, scheming, attention-seeking. Hasn't just become like this since her failing health.