There were a lot of years that it was obvious that I was running out of traditional meds and I was afraid. My pdoc told me honestly that I might run out of those choices but that she'd never stop looking for me and that I should know there was always clozapine. I was scared of clozapine but I came to find a lot of comfort in that phrase. And when I ran out of meds (barring typicals because I've had dystonias and other issues on them and nobody wants to try them again if it can be avoided) there was clozapine.

That's true for you too. I know you've been trying to do everything else possible first, as I did, and you've been doing well on trilafon. So maybe you need your dose adjusted. Or maybe you just need to take some deep breaths and remember there's always clozapine. There's probably always some other meds but for me it was clozapine.