I’m so uncomfortable today. I had a dream about self harm (I had one a few days ago too) and now I really want to do it. Like I can feel it almost on my skin. These dreams always make me feel like this. I’m not sure what my problem is. Often these dreams denote that something is wrong or stressful in my actual life. I’m not sure what that would be, other than remembering the abuse my husband put me through.

I did wake up better this morning. I actually took 12.5mg of seroquel at 8:30pm and went to sleep by ten. So I had enough time to sleep. My alarm went off at 8:30 but I slept an extra half hour. However that’s way better than an extra hour or hour and a half. And I’m not tired right now. Yesterday I was so tired I slept all day.

I’m not hungry either. I did eat a bagel before I went to sleep so maybe that’s still in there. I dont care though.

I found a place to take my son for therapy but they are not in network with any insurance. They do submit claims if your insurance has out of network benefits, which mine does. It’s 75/25, so I have to pay 25% but that better than paying outright.

I just have to find something to do today. Thinking of reading some books.