Hi all,

Checking-in. Been a bit. Fired my Therapist last week for being ineffective and repeatedly not responding to requests from me to tailor the therapy to something that meshes with my needs. It just wasn't working so I actually used the words: "Unfortunately this isn't working out and you are essentially fired."

Since then, I've been interviewing other therapists (its hard to find them around here that are taking new patients) and rejecting them left and right. Today I decided on one that I meshed with and one that I think will really push me past boundaries and make me challenge myself. It will be painful, and it will be hard, but I think that's what I want/need. And get this ish. She gave me her cell phone and told me to text/call whenever I need to. That she was there for me. I was floored. I've never had that in the past.

I'm also working on pursuing a new prescriber. The new therapist is more holistic and less about meds, but I made it crystal clear that while I'm open to natural methods, I'm not open to stopping a medication approach. It's just not an option for me and I won't entertain it. Deal-breaker.

Other news. No depressive episodes yet, just continuous cycles of mania separated by a week and a half to two weeks of chill time. It's all dysphoria, but its something I've learned to live with.

I've been reading and sending hugs when energy fills me. But know that I send you all love and hugs in my own way, digital hugs be damned. I root for each and every one of you.