Was feeling apathetic but still ok. I thought about taking a 750mg capsule of phenibut but fear of dp/dr stopped me from doing it - Also, I didn't want to do it because I was ok. My mom noticed that I wasn't having fun because she was being bossy and rushing everything.

We were driving to the lake (Mountain beach with sand) and I was staring out the window imagining myself



But they're just thoughts.. I actually had a really really good time! I suntanned and then took the float tube to the top of the river and floated down past everyone enjoying themselves for like 20 minutes.. Everyone was watching me float down stream..

I was having OCD thoughts but walking down the beach and putting my feet in the water was meditative and calming. It was a hot day with not much clouds - It was like being in Mexico.

Now we're gonna have hamburgers and greek salad =]