I have always been a procrastinator.
My psychiatrist says that with my self talk he's not surprised I don't bother doing anything. I did a bit of CBT for all kinds of thoughts but I never kept it up for various reasons, therapy being interrupted, picking the wrong kind of therapist, etc.

When it came to looking for work I
tended to procrastinate and get stressed by job search because I didn't have any real qualifications, and I have social anxiety disorder.

So I just stumbled from one day to the next for years, doing temp work mostly. I worked in an office for a couple of years.

A lot of the time I was unemployed and avoiding looking for work because I saw nothing but dead ends. I have social phobia, so I felt a dead end job as a cleaner or labourer in my 20s would mean work and little else.

I regret not sitting down and making some sort of plan when I was younger, maybe joining the army or something. At least that would be respectable, and I could have made friends and met women.

Instead I'd just look for a couple of jobs online, then procrastinate by watching TV or playing a video game.

Eventually I became a hypochondriac so I was unable to work or uninterested in work, because I was terrified that I was dying soon of various diseases.

Then my drugs made me numb and I didn't care about socializing or dating anymore, so there was little motivation to work. My psychiatrist put me on disability a couple of years ago.

Anyway I've always had this procrastination problem. Even today I barely did anything. These days I'm thinking of volunteer work, which I can do, but I just lack motivation when the day begins.

If anyone can relate to any of this, feel free to respond.