Going off of Xanax tomorrow. Hopefully all goes according to plan. I'm assuming it'll be fine.

I don't know why but it seems like my pdoc doesn't like me being on benzos. Maybe it's for a good reason. I don't know.

Anyway, just drinking a big coffee right now. I know, it's before bedtime, but whatever.

Planned two classes today that I will teach tomorrow.

I am not loving being on 10 mg Zyprexa, but whatever controls the thoughts I guess.

I am not sure I love being on Zyprexa period. But it seems to control all this doubting I have.

I definitely wish I could be on fewer meds.