MarcusAurelieus, please do be kind to yourself. Thinking about you and sending strengthening vibes.

ragingvortex, I'm sorry to read that you are depressed. I hope that as autumn nears, that fades. Are there some things about autumn that might lift your mood in any way?

Coolbreeze74, I hope your panic attacks ease. If your son is old enough, can you avoid him a bit, even if he is in the house? Is there some way you could occupy him with something he can do on his own?