I have found comfort in it as well. I now have a neurobiologic basis to support your brilliant insights about the role of my pained subconscious in creating thoughts that lead to anguished images. I am actually the one doing this to myself. Not God. Me. I create these images. Now, the visions, those are an entirely difft. matter. I am no making those, in my construct.
Quite helpful for the science dude.