I can’t sleep. Just having increasing anxiety and I can’t stop thinking about one particular thing. I know it’s stupid as it’s not even a definite thing yet. Just a lot of anxiety over potential family drama. I don’t want to offend anyone but in the end there’s no way around it. Not that I see, at least. I really shouldn’t be worrying about it as it will not happen for a few years anyway but once my mind latches on to something it won’t let go.

I haven’t had this much anxiety in awhile. I’m getting self harm dreams again. I’ve had three in the past week, including one last night. That’s how I know I’m stressed.

I’m grateful for my son’s therapist. I think it will work out well for him, and me. He’s also a family therapist. I feel like a fish out of water with my son. I want to do right by him but my mom was a ****** mom growing up so I’ve got nothing to go on. My son’s attitude is getting snippier. I want to figure out how we can increase communication without me just yelling at him. That’s not productive at all. I don’t want him to be pushed off and scared of me, but I also need to have firm boundaries and let him know that I’m in charge. I don’t know how to balance the two. Hopefully this therapist can help both of us.