Are you also with the "im not a monster, schizophrenia" facebook group as well? I added that a long time ago. But hey it's nice see someone do well for themselves and instead of being jealous I want to use it as a motivation on being able to do well for myself. It's hard because I've been hospitalized about 30 times since 2009. Im out and I'm lost. My friends kids were taking away. Almost dealt with homelessness when cps took the kids. I miss the kids... I love my friends I live with. We're family... they're my family. Just like I felt with the snapchat group before deleting it off my phones. I make mistakes... but I'm harder on myself than anyone else.