Thanks for all your support and encouragement but I dont deserve it, I always end up letting everyone down in the end. I thought I was making progress but I had a major set back the other night, thought I could stop after one line but I was still going the next morning and ended up in the medical centre, it really scared me and I swore never again but knowing me the memory of how much of a state I was in will soon pass. Got my finals in uni starting next week so just going to try concentrate on them but I see now that my way of dealing with this obviously isnt working so ill have to sort myself out properly when I finish my exams. My friends have also had enough.

Caitlin