I think it's a personal choice. How badly do you really want to feel better? Do you just want to be a better mom? Maybe just focus on that. I think you might be overwhelmed with the knowledge of all of your problems. Sometimes this causes me to freeze.
Maybe just take one little piece of your issues and work on that until you get some clarity or breakthrough. Then stop and allow yourself to really feel good about your progress no matter how small. This will give you the energy to tackle another piece when you are ready.