I don’t know why but I seem to be getting slightly nauseous after I eat. I first noticed it with chips. I ate some chips three days in a row (not bingeing, just some). I felt bad every time. So I thought it was maybe the high fat content. I bought baked chips instead and all was well. Then this morning I drank a small caramel iced coffee from McDonald’s and ate a bowl of pumpkin spice Cheerios. Now I’m not feeling good again. Maybe this tome it was too much sugar? I dunno. Maybe it’s just anxiety. I don’t feel bad enough that I will throw up, just a general queasy stomach. I guess I’ll cut out excess sugar too and see if that helps. It’s better for me anyway.

I’m just not in a good mood today. I feel a little depressed, not sure why. No self harm dreams thAt I remember. I’m a little less anxious about the one subject. I figure I dint really have to worry about it for at least 2-3 more years. I need to just put it out of my mind til then.

I can’t wait to go on a date with RS tomorrow. We haven’t been out on our own all summer. We will be coming up on our two year anniversary in just three months! Unfortunately due to the dreaded virus we may not be able to do anything fun, as outdoor dining will be closed for the season. Oh well. Never know what may happen in three months!