I don't know if this is the right place to post this but I feel my CEN is linked to my low self esteem and that causes me to feel jealous.

My partner has said a couple of times in passing that someone is handsome. I want to be comfortable enough in myself for it to just be a normal conversation.

I don't lash out or say anything to her because i'm not that type of person and I think I am in the wrong.
When she says those things I feel terrible about myself because I can't help think 'i'm not good enough' or 'she thinks someone else is better than me'

I know I can't trust my mind and my partner is just the best, she is so supportive and caring, I deserve to treat myself better and I want to be better for her.