I am so sorry you are dealing with this..

I went through a situation like that last year. My boss decided that she wanted me out. Basically it was a personality thing. She was hot and cold about people. I saw so many people come and go because they somehow got on her bad side. Suddenly, everything I did was criticized. The editor started to be as nasty to me as the boss. Suddenly things that were acceptable, like types of sources of information, were rejected, so my production went way down. The thing is where I live, they would have had to pay me severance, so the idea was to get me to quit. Obviously.

I was like you, not sleeping, not eating, losing weight, panic attacks, dreading every day. Finally, I ended up in the ER diagnosed with adjustment order with anxiety after my boss and her boss said they wanted a meeting with me. The doctor sent me out leave for a while. I came back a few months later and a few weeks after that, they let me go but with severance. It was a relief. My mental and physical health improved so much. I was able to find work a few months later.

I know the job market in many places is really bad and you may need to have to stay for financial reasons. But, I agree, that you need to do all you can to transfer or a new job for your health. Maybe a transfer would be easier since they know you at the company. I tried that but it was shot down. I think my boss had something to do with it.


I wish you all the best in finding something better. No one deserves that kind of treatment.