wow- this just reminded me (and triggered) back when I was living with man and he knew I cut (you could still read the words I HATE YOU on my arm- and he gave me an exacto and told me how to cut to make cleaner scars- relationship ended very bad and I escaped from him after 2 years. I hope your b/f is not trying to be "helpfull" like mine was back then. Be safe as you can o k ?