Hi Catriana. So, I can understand how you emerge from chilhood with low self-esteem. Mine came in fits and starts, and is still building even today. Having been diagnosed bipolar at the age of 44 hasn't helped, but I have discovered one really important thing - I have to start making the things I am good at worth pursuing. I am a business woman, because my parents were business people. But what I really am, is a writer. I have a magical brain when it comes to words, and a God-given talent for understanding children. So what I have done is taken and passed an aptitude test for the children's literature institute. And on June 1st, God-willing, I will start down the path that will open up the rest of my life.
So, what is your passion? Everything I have read suggests that it is that one activity or thing that you did as a child that you could disappear into for hours at a time. Was it drawing, or hiking, or gardening? Experts suggest it may be an activity that a significant adult unkowingly ridiculed or squashed, so you might have to dig deep to find it.
When you do find it, set a series of goals, today, next week, next month, and next year. As you cross over each goal line, you will feel your self esteem building at light speed.
Good luck, and god bless.