I find myself parenting in a way with my friends kids... I feel brokenhearted because the kids got taken away. Things are said about me and my friend that wasn't true because there's no way I'd threaten the kids. I loved them as my own... I feel responsible in a way because the whole thing about the house being dirty. The youngest was crying when they took her. She was like "don't let them take me away"... I care for those kids. I care so much for them. I love those kids and the hurt from the separation and not being able to see the kids for over a month is hard.