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Old Aug 22, 2020, 09:21 AM
Gabyunbound Gabyunbound is offline
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Exhausted all the time. Taking 2 klonopin at this point instead of 1, and very early, just so that the day ends as early as possible. I'm depressed.

As I wrote previously on this board, my mother, who has severe MS, fell and fractured her ankle in two places. She used to get around on an electric wheelchair, but she is currently bed-bound.

I took care of her for 8 days (she now has 24/7 homecare) I got very very little sleep, she woke me up a lot for various reasons.

My brother refuses to help and I'm very angry and sad about that. I emailed him yesterday about it.

I've been back home for a week now, back to work, etc. But, as I say, I'm exhausted all the time and just want to sleep and black out everything...life. I'm not Sui.

Not sleeping used to be a big trigger for hypo/mania for me. This time I'm just very depressed. But it may be considered 'situational.' Or maybe it started that way, and now I just can't claw myself out of it. It's like a black hole and I just can't get out. Though the black hole beckons me to sleep and sleep and sleep.

My therapist has been helpful. But I'm not doing my usual self-care: exercise and eating well. Just too tired and feel like eating junk. I know I'm not helping myself...
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Bipolar 1
Lamictal: 400 mg
Latuda: 60mg
Klonopin: 1 mg
Propranolol: 10 mg
Zoloft: 100 mg
Temazepam: 15 mg
Zyprexa 5-10mg prn

(for Central Pain Syndrome: methadone 20 mg; for chronic back pain: meloxicam 15 mg; for migraines: prochlorperazine prn)
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