my plan right now is avoidance.... and homework.
i can tell there is a trigger at the back of my mind (my breakfast - yuck!!) and not sure if it is going to develop or if i can get out of this one. mind - the thought is in there of covering it with chocolate

also - this is weird, but there is a mug in our cupboard that i really REALLY want to smash to bits. I hate it. Mom says it is her's but I know it was his. It has ducks on it - everything he owned had ducks on it. I refuse to use it, even if it is the only mug in there. I had such an urge to grab it and throw it into the sink while mom was away. Maybe the next time she's gone, i can put it in a thick bag and drop it off the balcony. Everytime i see it, the destructives want to do damage.